Teary Day?
Wednesday, July 11, 2007@1:32:00 AM
I'm abit emotional today...When i'm on my way to sch this morning, nearly reaching...I was listening to Mr Children - Kimi Ga Suki...A mono yt sombre song...Then, i saw a guy in civil defence uniform...My eyes nearly wet...I'm cryin bt i managed to hold it back...He reminded me of my brother...It has been 10 yrs since he left me & my family...Died in accident...He was still under CD when he passed away. Among my 3 brothers, I'm close to him...Firstly, he's 1st one to teach me hw to draw...I rmbr gt once, we lie down together as he draw something to show me...I felt that he's the one that I'm really close to...It's nt that i'm comparing, bt it's obvious nw...A great disparities among my two brothers compare to my late brother...Another 4 days will be his bdae...
I really wish he still alive~~
For siblings support, i felt lonely~~
Wonder if he will show care & concern more than my brothers if he was alive?
Those who experience this will noe the pain...My cousin also experienced it..We are in the same boat...losing what he held on tightly only to find out it has drifted away~~~
I felt totally different...nw left 2...bt feel no diff...why?
- one is noe hw to blow his top incessantly & easy shifting blames
- Quite childish & very very moody...Doesn't heard my pleas at all..Ask for a tiny favours also
no returns....
Now, i can only depend on my parents...They are my pillar, my strength...Coz nobody else will help us except 4 ourselves..
In the memory of my beloved brother, Muhd Amin Bin Othman (1976-1997)~~~
